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    • Thank you so much for that post – I love your website, I am based in Germany and randomly found it while looking up recipes. I was suffering from a massive eating disorder when I was younger, and never really recovered from the “lacks” of nutrition during that time. Nowadays, I can tell, I am fully recovered also due to my paleo diet. Our bodies are capable of forgiving “mistakes” in terms of food, in terms of how you treated your body. The body is a miracle, working at its best when you give it the necessary support of vitamins, good food etc. . I think everybody going through an eating disorder – as soon as healed from it- can take it as a lesson for learning many things about life and your body and get born newly!
      Hope my English was ok (I am German;))
      Many thanks for your inspiring posts and openness in all aspects!
      Looking forward to more of them!

  1. I admire you Lauren. You have been through so much with your health.. and you didn’t give up. I wish you all the best and I am extremely happy for your smart choices that allowed you to recover and start healing. Thank you for sharing your story and for amazing info in regards to healing foods. Sending lots of love your way! Xo

  2. I’m a therapist and holistic nutritionist practicing in the area of helping people heal their relationship with food by healing the relationship with their body and their mind. Thank you for writing this honest article and sharing the importance of an approach that takes care of the physical and mental part of healing.

  3. Thanks for sharing your story Lauren. I’ve always had an unhealthy relationship around food(a lot of shame with it).Whole family does. How does one do aip without feeling like you’re living disorderly eating? Diagnosed with hashimottos. So aip seems to be the only thing keeping inflammation down, but mentally I’m feeling toyed with. Thank you

  4. Lauren,
    Thank-you for this post. I read everything you’ve written and I’m almost old enough to be your grandma. I’ve been on this journey of healing my gut for the past three years and I continue to go back and forth through the gaps stages. I’ve eaten more gluten-free food than I’d care to admit within the past year and unfortunately weight came back on and inflammatory situations as well. I’ve struggled so much to reverse a life time of mis-information yet I’m determined to see this through. Your reminder about perfection and balance with that is spot on, thanks again.

  5. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing. It is so difficult to share these stories but also so important. So many women struggle with disordered eating in many many forms. Knowledge is power for real! Thank you!

  6. I was first anorexic in college, then bulimic. My ritual included no nail polish and a short index fingernail (induction tool). Breaking that ritual meant painting my nails and letting that nail grow as long as the others.
    It sounds trivial and simplistic but it was critical for my recovery. It didn’t happen over night though. It took about 10 years before the desire/urge to purge went away.
    I still struggle with big spreads of food though. All of that food in one place still makes me queasy. It’s been 25 years.
    Thank you for sharing your story and for approaching it differently than a typical person of “that’s so unhealthy.”

  7. Thank you so much!! Your article hit home with me and is so spot on. Your suggestions and steps to recovery should be the basis of any therapeutic program. Look forward to your next post 😉

  8. Superb, much-needed article. Thank you for sharing! There is SO much misinformation out there about food, body physiology and mental health. Really glad you managed to turn your eating disorder and disease into a rich and helpful source for your amazing website/resources. Keep sharing and thriving Lauren! All the comments on your posts are also useful for other readers, thanks to all x

  9. I have had some form of ED my entire life, from binge eating/purging/anorexia… the entire gambit and I am mid 40’s now. I totally relate to the meal planning and rituals as I still do that but I keep it in check as best as I can. The line between normal and disordered eating is very, very gray to me, but since my gastric bypass 8 years ago, there is no purging (no real stomach) and binge eating is painful.

    However, I do have to wonder at the connection of the gut microbiome and disordered eating? I recall to this very day being 6 or 7ish years old, waiting very impatiently for the PBJ my mom was making for lunch and the taste of the sweet grape jelly, peanut butter, and white bread – it was heavenly! Looking back, I recall also being placed on liquid penicillin for an entire YEAR around the same time to control strep outbreaks I was having. (The good guys in my gut were eradicated and the bad guys were clamoring for sugar and bread.) The consequent weight gain by the time I had 2nd grade pictures taken was obvious and it became a struggle for life and the fight with food began. And with the no-fat rules I had, I was obviously messing with my brain. on top of putting all the artificial sweeteners and chemicals into my body because they cost me no calories… It is no wonder that I am diagnosed with Hashimoto’s as an adult, in fact, I feel lucky that is all I have!

    I wonder if the imbalance in the gut can trigger the struggle in a person’s brain?

  10. Wow, this is so true. I hope that every single women and young girl out there knows this. This is the epidemic that has been plaguing the minds of people every day because they are mislead by all the media about all these fad diets that will work for the scale, but will destroy them inside and outside.

    Whilst agreeing, I can admit that I’m a cheat myself too, as sometimes I ended up eating sugary treats, that give me short comfort, which after I feel so guilty. Haha.

    BUT, if there’s one thing that I have TRULY mastered to ignore and contain, that’s RICE. In my culture rice is everything, but it is extremely HIGH in carbohydrates. A typical member in my family can consume 2 cups of rice, PER MEAL. And that is NOT good. With that said, I really don’t eat rice anymore, but when I do, I make sure I keep it down to a good portion. Mind you I’m only 5’2. So I must watch what I really eat.

    TL;DR, once you truly “ignore” a food for a sustained period of time, it will be an easy thing to resist the urge to eat it. But I’m still far from doing that with sugary treats.

  11. This article really touched me. While I have never struggled with an eating disorder, I struggle with health perfectionism.For quite sometime I was a vegan and felt that sense of having control over my life. At that time my life was very unhappy and i experienced a verbally abusive relationship and just generally going thru alot of mess. Fast forward to now, I am as happy as can be and this remains a struggle for me. I created a box and put myself in it and its the last man standing in this portion of my life. My life is so drastically different and I am older and I am working daily to get over my need to have that “vegan glow”. Part of that will come from understanding how absolutely beautiful i am and as long as I take care of myself and create an environment of balance i will still glow. You are doing Gods work in my eyes, I will continue to follow your blog for the encouragement I need. Daily i struggle with food choices, if something isn’t up to my standards, I may not eat until I get home. I love food too much to starve myself, but i’m sure the inconsistency isn’t healthy either. I have at least learned how to eat when i am hungry, I never really over do it with food. Now if I could just eat meat without guilt. I really have to shift my thinking and its a process but I love growing into this new woman who can really be in tune with my body. My body knows what it needs and I am listening. It is so wonderful to hear your body and listen. In my 30’s I am uncomplicating my life and that means if I want lamb or steak, I just have to make smart choices in the quality and be mindful of the quantity. Balance is key! Thank you for this Lauren. Blessings to you!

  12. Inspiring recovery story. I am happy that you were able to win the battle against your eating disorder. I’ve myself suffered from bulimia back then. It was hard hiding it. Then one day I decided to accept that I had bulimia and must recover from it. My sight was focus on freeing myself from bulimia and never to return to the vicious cycle of binge eating and purging. I am now bulimia free for more than 20 years. I hope we will remain free from our eating disorder for the rest of our life. We will be able to enjoy life without it. I would love to chat with you one of these days and share our recovery experience together.

  13. Thank you so much for that post – I love your website, I am based in Germany and randomly found it while looking up recipes. I was suffering from a massive eating disorder when I was younger, and never really recovered from the “lacks” of nutrition during that time. Nowadays, I can tell, I am fully recovered also due to my paleo diet. Our bodies are capable of forgiving “mistakes” in terms of food, in terms of how you treated your body. The body is a miracle, working at its best when you give it the necessary support of vitamins, good food etc. . I think everybody going through an eating disorder – as soon as healed from it- can take it as a lesson for learning many things about life and your body and get born newly!
    Hope my English was ok (I am German;))
    Many thanks for your inspiring posts and openness in all aspects!
    Looking forward to more of them!

  14. Thank you SO much for this. I’ve been struggling with disordered eating going on 10 years now. I actually read this while forcing myself to eat the rest of my breakfast, I’ve been slowly transitioning into larger meals and this just confirmed why I need to eat more and make these changes. The brain sickness info was a huge revelation moment to me, now I can see how my eating habits have been negatively impacting my mental health all these years… Thank you again ❤

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Lauren Geertsen, NTP

I’m an author, entrepreneur, and nutritional therapy practitioner (NTP). I began this website at 19, to share the steps that freed my life of chronic disease and medication. Now, Empowered Sustenance has reached 30 million readers with healthy recipes and holistic resources.

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